Do not be afraid for I am with you.
I will bring your children from the East
and gather you from the West."
~God (Isaiah 43:5)
Today is your first day without your Mommy. I'm having a very hard time letting go of you. I know that kids do this all the time, and in the end it turns out to be the best thing for them, but this day is not one that makes me smile. I told daddy that today, I don't like being a mom. It's the only day since we laid our eyes on you that I have had a aching pit in my stomach. But we will get through this and you will have the time of your life. I'm posting some pictures of you on your first day of Daycare. Have a wonderful time with all the others babies.
I love you, my little angel,
Mommy
Happy Daddy Day!!!!
We have had a busy couple of weeks. I have been down for medical reasons. Paul has been sick. It's just been one thing after another. But one thing that has kept this crazy world from getting to me is Millie. She is the sunshine in my day. The fresh breath in the mornings. The first and last thing I see everyday. What a wonderful change my life has taken. I have to keep up with posting for Millie. I don't want her to miss all of these first that we have had with her. She is saying bye bye, and waving. She has been trying to feed herself. She is drinking from a sippy cup, with and without my help. She is saying ma ma all the time. I didn't think that I could tear up and even cry more than when we were on the waiting list for our daughter. I was wrong. I cry almost everyday, just out of joy, not sadness. I can't remember my life before her. I remember people who had adopted that I knew saying to me, when you meet your daughter the wait will be worth the wait. They were telling me that straight from the heart. If I was younger I would have waited twice as long for her. I'm glad I didn't have to, but I would have if I knew how this was going to feel. I missed father's day on the blog, but Millie didn't. She was able to spend all day with her daddy. He wasn't feeling well but she made him smile all day long. Happy father's day to the best daddy in the world. He is the strongest man I have ever known. We all know what he has done for Millie and her mommy. We are a family because of him.
Here are some new pictures of Millie. She is getting ready to start Day Care Monday, because mommy is going back to school. Keep both of us in your prayers. It is going to be rough.
Sorry for being late on the Friday post but we were out of town for the weekend at the State softball tournament. Which by the way was very hot and Mercy got beat in the finals. But back to what Millie has been up to. She loves to swim. We went swimming in the pool at the camp grounds. She is sitting up by herself now. She says da da and growls. She is trying to say mama, but I don't think she knows what she is saying to tell you the truth. She is on the verge of crawling. I'm worried that when she gets there I'm in trouble. She is very active and loves attention from anyone that is willing to give it. I can't tell you how much joy and happiness she has brought to our home. I can't believe how much she is changing and loves everyone she meets. Someone that I barley know told me to keep an eye on her the other day, she said people like to steal babies that are friendly like Millie. I wigged out and walked away from her. What is up with telling me that? So I'm getting over it, and trying to not be over protective like everyone thought I would be. I just looked down to see where Millie was and she is across the room. Rolling everywhere and chabbering about something on the floor I think. Better go so I can get her back in the same room as me.
We have had Millie for 2 weeks and 1 day. She is so happy. She smiles all day long. She is in the process of meeting all of her new family. We still have so many people to go, but we are getting there. She has come so far so fast. Last night she slept all the way through the night for the first time since we left China. She is sleeping about 11 hours a night. Millie has 2 naps a day, and we are working on a schedule for eating. I can't believe how much that I don't know. One of the many benefits to becoming a mom after everyone else is, getting to call and ask advice from all of my friends and family. I also get all of the hand me downs to borrow for awhile. I have a house full of all of my friends and sisters must have items for babies. I remember seeing all the toys and playtime things in their house during their children's early days, and I never thought I would ever get to use them. But they are in my house and being put to very good use. I'm happy to see our daughter laughing when she sees them. Millie is working very hard at getting all of our attention. I believe she had older kids where she lived, that played with her all day long. She loves to play and make noise. It feels the house with so much excitement.
Kaelin is trying to get used to her, but that will take time.
Kaelin and I have always been so close that it is hard on her. But soon she will love Millie as much as she loves us. I will post some picture after the weekend so I can get Millie on her first camping trip.
We are home at last. After a long trip that Amelia only slept for about 4 hours over 28 hours, we are settling in. Amelia seems to like the her new home. She and we are having some jet lag problems. Getting her back on schedule has been a challenge, going okay considering she is 12 hours off from her normal routine. Millie sleeps about 6 hours and then she is ready to go. But we are working on it and it will be back to normal soon, I hope. We went to the Pediatrician yesterday and that was traumatic for all of us. She had to get blood drawn and it was terrible. Now since it wasn't successful we have to go to Kosiar's to have it done again. She is starting to play with toys more than she did the first couple of days we had her. She likes food more than her bottle. And she smiles all the time. No tears until bedtime. We cannot go in public without everyone stopping us to look at her. She laughs and smiles for everyone and then it takes for ever to get anything done. I'm discussing with her that she has to tame it down just a tiny bit for mama, but she doesn't agree. But I love it and so does she.
My family and friends meet us at the airport for a very emotional welcome. Thanks to everyone and child that stayed up way past their bedtime to see Amelia. It was so good to see everyone there waiting for us. That moment was very intense for us. I couldn't believe we made it home and then everyone was there. She will hear about all of you that have made our wait and time in China well worth it. Amelia is the lucky one, for all of your support and prayers have lead us home to you. I will not let any of you down when it comes to being her Mother. She has our hearts and my life will never be the same. I know that I have posted on this blog, and with the help of my sister created it, but I have said it before and I feel like it needs to be said again. All of your comments and support have made it more than I could have ever dreamed it would have been. I love that all of you have taken the time to write us and Amelia. It will be so nice for her to get to read it when she is mature and can understand what happened on May 6Th 2009. She came into all of our lives through Lily. Which brings me to make sure that all of you know that I'm keeping in contact with our Adoption Agency to follow up on Lily. She is being evaluated and treated for her problems, and then the decision will be made on what kind of treatment she will receive to try to get her on the special needs list. And to be adopted. I'm trying to stay on top of it as much as FTIA will let me. They keep telling me that she will be taken very good care of. I just have to have faith that she is in good hands.
So I will keep updates for the next couple of months so everyone that has follow the blog and our journey to meet Amelia, can she how much she will change over just a few months. She has changed so much already.
