HAPPY GOTCHA DAY TO AMELIA!!!!!

One year ago today Amelia was born into our lives. She came so unexpected and to her and us. She too found out when she got on her bus early that morning that her world was about to change. I'm sure she didn't know that she was going to meet her new Momma and Dada, but she knew everything was moving fast and it was not her usual day. She was scared and upset when she showed up on that day but a year later she is thriving and stealing every one's heart she comes into contact with. I can't imagine my life any other way. I'm so happy! I just didn't think that my life would ever be so completely full of love. There have been so many hard times for us, we have endured so much loss and pain. She has brought so much laughter and tears to both of us, but this time out of happiness. We love you Millie!

Millie's day was all about her, she eat egg's and chocolate chip waffle's for breakfast, she got to go to Michele's and Clint, our babysitter. She had corn dog's, boiled egg's, corn, macaroni and cheese, black and green olives, fruit, and salad for dinner, and chocolate pie for dessert. All of her favorite's, minus noodles. Her day was so happy for her, all the food she wanted, played outside, danced inside with Momma, read books, chased dog's around the house. Life is sweet. One more thank you to all who have reached out to us, and helped bring Millie home. Special thanks to Aunt Karen and Jill for listening to me while going through rough times in China.

One Year ago today!!

I can't help but to remember how I spent April 29Th 2009. We were on an airplane with so many emotions and excitement that I don't think I rested the whole flight. We were about to begin our journey that seemed like eternity to us. We were flying to China. We had all of our luggage and money and I panicked often thinking I forgot our important paperwork at home. I was so nervous and if anyone can remember back that far, Paul watched all of the shows on plane crashes and then choose to tell me about them. I guess that was his own fears faced and dealt with unlike myself, I choose to not think about that on a 14 hour+ flight. Although Paul did put some terrible thoughts in my head. We just couldn't believe that we were going to meet our daughter. Not even those fears wiped the smiles off our face. We laughed and held hands, it almost felt like our honeymoon, in love with our daughter. I sit and type about it and I have to smile for the memories. There isn't another time in my life that I can remember being so anxious and excited and nervous at the same time, for such a long period of time. So I'm going to post pictures of what our little angel from heaven is doing one year later. She is with her Maw maw and Paw paw tonight, they have come back home from Florida for the summer, and she is visiting with them. One year ago today she was only a dream that we had. Now she's our baby girl. We love you Amelia Yi,

Millie at Easter

Well we had all of our family to celebrate Millie's first Easter with us. It was a wonderful day full of laughing and hunting Easter eggs. Millie was up early to start on her basket that was left for her. He brought her a leotard for her gymnastics class, plenty of candy, which is her favorite, and a stuffed animal and balloons from daddy. We had a small problem with our camera and her pictures were erased, so we have had to ask for other family members pictures to add to Millie's memories. This picture of Grandma helping Millie hunt eggs is so sweet, her first Easter egg hunt and Grandma is showing her the ropes.

So much to tell but I will just post the most important

I have been so busy with school and our computer has been sick for awhile, but here are some updates. Millie has been going to a new sitter, and she loves her and her son. She seems to be trying to talk so much more. She is also in gymnastics, and by the looks of her mom, I know nothing about that. She loves the trapiez and running from me the entire time we are in the class. She really is very good at at least trying to do what she is supposed to but we will see how she does in the future. Millie celebrated Reese's birthday with her, which are when some of these photo's were taken. She has been really changing in all of little ways recently, she has developed a wonderful carefree personality, that makes me look at things so differently now. We have to stop everything we are doing at look at a bug or a piece of grass in the yard, only to throw it as hard as we can about 6 inches in front of us. (And then laugh really hard) Millie tries to put on her makeup with me, and she does know where all of it goes on her face, and I thought she didn't pay attention to anything that had to do with me and what I do!!! She doesn't really put it on she just pretends. That's all I have time for so enjoy the pictures.

LILY

Today is Lily's 2nd Birthday, and as painful as it is to look at these pictures, my heart is full of love when I see them. Lily spent only 24 hours with us, and in those few hours has made an lasting impression on our lives. I can't remove those feelings or the love and wondering and praying for her everyday. Hoping that she has found a forever family. Thinking about what her life is like. Ours will never be the same since the day we met her. She is our angel that helped us meet Amelia. Someone so small and fragile has moved me and made me see life in a very different way. I wish I could tell you that I'm past that day we met her, but that is not true and I don't know if I will ever be. I will always love her and cherish the time we spent with her. She is still my daughter in China that I could not bring home. So just because I want to, Happy Birthday Lily, I love you and miss you so much, thank you for the sweet and wonderful way you touched our hearts.
Mommy and Daddy

Happy Valentine's Day

Daddy made us feel so important today, with flowers, candy, and stuffed animals. I hope that Millie feels better tomorrow, she has not been herself today. And her candy is calling Mommas name. Just kidding, it will all be there for her, we do fight over it, but I will save hers. She always likes to eat mine first and then hers. So much like me on the sweets.

Millie loves the snow!!

Millie and Avery playing in the snow.

First steps in the snow!!

This is a few pictures of Millie's first trip out into the snow covered ground. Millie loves to eat and play in the snow. I have to be very careful to not let any snow on the kitchen floor when we come in from outside because she will eat and lick the floor if any falls off of our shoes, or the dogs feet. I love to watch her play and run in the snow. Too bad I'm not a big fan of it. She doesn't even care if it's cold. When I get her out of the car in the garage I have to make sure the door is shut or she will run into the backyard and not come back until I go and get her. All the way down the hill in my shoes that are not fit for snow. These are the good days when I get to view the world from my daughters eyes. It almost makes me get excited to see it snow, as much as I don't like it.

Millie has been going to daycare for two weeks now and it is going okay. She has a ear infection, her and my first dealing with that. She started swinging at me in pain so I figured I had better go check with the doctor to see if something was broke from her day at the daycare or if it was her ear. It was her ear thankfully. Mom has a hard time with mornings as does Millie, to leave her in tears and then go to school and concentrate on whatever it is that day is hard on me. I have found someone to watch her in their home so she will be leaving daycare for now, but with the way things go with us she may go back. I hope not, but she might. That's it for now, and I hope to keep up with posting but my time is limited with all the test and reading, not to mention spending what time I can with my amazing babygirl.