Do not be afraid for I am with you.
I will bring your children from the East
and gather you from the West."
~God (Isaiah 43:5)
Millie is so perfect. I know that everyone thinks that about their children. I'm just another Mama that thinks her child is perfect. What is so scary too me is that she was sent to me from God in ways that I can't even explain, but if you have been reading along with this blog, you get it from the outside point of view. Inside our lives is so amazing that I still can't believe what is going on. My Mother-in-law asked me yesterday if everything has sunk in. If it feels real yet. I have to say in the moment it does feel real. I can't remember my life before Millie. I have no idea what I did with all of my time. I can't remember not waking up to Millie. Sleeping in. Even when she does visit with Grandma and spends the night, I'm on her schedule. But when we get ready for bed and everything is winding down I get so emotional. Every night we read a book and say our prayers, and I sing to Millie, (she and Kaelin are the only ones who love to hear me sing) we pray for Millie's biological mom. We hope that she is okay and wish that we could let her know that Millie has made our life so complete. She is so much like me in so many ways. She has a great personality, funny, jabbers all the time, very busy and loves to laugh. Then the ways she is like Daddy, she has a temper, likes to tear things up and not help put them back together, leaves her mess for Mommy to clean up, talks back but I can't understand what she's saying yet because it's sound foreign to me. That last part was just for fun, (sort of) But on the serious note, at night is when this feels like a dream. When I get to reflect back on the last 4 months God blessed us with a absolutely beautiful, happy, loving baby. I will not go on and on about how perfect she, is but we have answered prayers fast asleep at our house, and I'm a Mommy. New words. Night-night, bath, baby, doggy, Papaw, awe, tickle tickle, bite, thank-you, give, all gone, all done. Along with all the old ones, it's crazy how fast she learns. She can point to my nose, eyes, mouth, raises up her shirt to show her belly-button. She does bite, and pinch which are not fun for me but it happens when she is acting like other people in the family. Here are some pictures of Paul's family reunion, Kaelin and Millie.
We brought Millie home 4 months ago today. Happy Grandparents Day!!!!!!!!!!
Gooooo CATS!!!!!
Happy Birthday to Millie, Happy Birthday to Millie, Happy Birthday to Millie, Happy Birthday
So many balls.
opening up my present
Made in China shirt for my birthday! But I'm loved in the USA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MILLIE
Today is your birthday and we get to spend it with you. I can't believe you have been with us for just a short time in your life and we get to watch you turn one. We are so blessed to get to share this day with you on your sweet 1st birthday. How in the world did we get so lucky. Mommy and Daddy are on top of the world. We want every wish and dream to come true for you. I know your too young to remember life without us, but we never thought you would be here for your birthday this year. Our world is so full of love and laughter with you in it. So many people have said to me, "it like Millie was ours from the beginning and just spent sometime away from us". That's how we feel. You were meant to come to us and God made it happen. My sweet beautiful baby girl, I love you with every inch of my heart and I want to make sure you have a very Happy Birthday.
We love you, Mommy and Daddy
We went to visit our friends the Ferguson's in Moorehead KY last weekend for the first time since Millie came home. I know that I have talked about them in the early post, before we received our referral but just in case you need to be refreshed. We met Chuck, the children you see in the pictures Dad, 2 years ago while tailgating for UK football. I don't know if you all know this but I was having a very difficult time with the waiting process in our adoption at this time. And a friend of Chucks told us about his pictures of his kids, they said you would not believe how beautiful they are. Unknowing of what to expect I met Chuck and he showed me his babies. I started to get very emotional as he told us their ages and where they were adopted from. How long they waited for their son Zeke, which is from Cambodia. He told his story to me on a night that I will never forget. He invited us down to meet Lori and his kids to Moorehead. He wanted me to see the happy ending. He kept telling us you have to hold on. That we had it in us to wait this time out. Come home to my family and you will see how much they have brought to us. So we did, and I fell in love with them all. Lori brought out all of their photo albums. She cried with me as I looked through the pictures that seemed to never be in my house at the time. But this family kept us going by showing us their love and happiness. I can't believe now that I was ever in that place of sadness. Wondering if my baby would ever come home to me. If she would ever look at me the way Zoey, Zeke and Zara look at Lori and Chuck. Thank you for your words and love Chuck and Lori. Look Chuck our kids ARE playing together one day. Love you both and your babies.
